My life goals and dreams

[Arcanagirl]

I want everyone to know what could happen to me in the next month and wish to say a few things incase I dont get to later.

My cancer treatments are failing and not having money or insurance keeps me from getting better treatments to save my life. They always could remove the cancer by force, but lack of funds may also place that as an option they cant do.

I find out tomorrow if the cancer has fully denied the treatments and is growing back to high. If that is the case I dont have time to wait for insurance cause this cancer in high stages will spread and kill within days.

Right now I cant say what my chances are, unless I know they will remove it without charging my husband and I. I pray for god to help us in everyway there is, but today I found out there is nothing anyone can do for me. Not even Cancer of America. They only help those with cancers that are outside the uterus or close by.

My only hope is if SSI grants me back on and gets me medical within the next week, but I checked on my status and its far from being determined.

I want everyone to know my goals and dreams before I go. If worst comes to worst.

Goals in life I always wanted to complete before my time:
-Play Suikoden 5 when it releases on March 29th, I been waiting long time to play this and I better live to play it or I will be mad!

-Make the best damn game that anyone has every played! So good it ranks up with Square Enix games.

-Own my own business selling and buying back new and used games and computer stuff.

-Have a child of my own, but that looks very slim at the moment.

Dreams before my time:

-I want to get my game finished completely and have everyone play it. I worry if worst comes I wont even get to the demo release, but I am trying my hardest to work every last second on my demo. And my life comes before my game, but if my dream is to see it out and played by others or even Square Enix making what I couldnt finish, I would be happy.

So if I am to pass this world with peace, I rather die knowing I worked towards my dreams then to live what life remains doing nothing but going crazy when everyone denies helping me or giving insurance coverage.

[Spike21]

... i will pray for you

[WarxePB]

All we can offer to do is pray for you. And I shall... hopefully, it makes a difference.

[Grandy]

 I'm really sorry to hear that. I wish everything turns out okay.

[Revolution911]

Wow...I'm sorry to hear all of this. I honestly hope you live through it.
I really admire how upbeat you seem with all of this. Its just...wow.

[Ace of Spades]

I'm at a loss of words... This is really serious. I wish there was more I could do, but all I can do is pray for you, and I will do that much. I really hope that something can be done to help you so that you can fulfill your goals.  

[Desimodontidae]

Being non-religious, I cant pray for you, but I can say I hope you get better. If you wanna create a Square like game, you'll need some really good (probably expensive) programs, and a team, and all that other fun stuff. Meh.

[Meiscool-2]

Very touching. I hope you can acomplish your wishes.

[FFL2and3rocks]

Wow... hopefully things will turn out alright...

[drenrin2120]

I already told you how I feel. So, goodluck, and you're in my prayers.

[Al~Len]

I really do hope you'll be alright Jenna.
Take care.

[Rune_of_Punishment]

I'm not going to hope that things will get better. I know things will get better. At a point in life where a person is facing high odds, there's always something that saves them. You could say I'm idealizing, but when I see and hear this stuff on the news or radio almost every week, I can't help but know that things are going to get better. You've got too much left in your life that you need to to accomplish, Jen. Keep looking for any kind of aid you can. If there's a will, there's a way. You'll find it.

[shadus]

God Bless lady I don't know.

*Deletes stupid thing said in your game therad.*

[Almeidaboo]

Youīre gonna get through it girl, please donīt speak of it as if itīs over...God'll be looking at you and wonīt let you go 'k?

[Tomi]

You are in my prayers.