Returning

[Drace]

Suddenly just posting again has had the effect on people that I wanted to achieve. I really feel missed guys (and girls), awesome. Of couse, I all owe you an explanation about why I have been gone for so bloody long. Gonna make it short though.

April, 2007
It was a normal day. No rain, but no sun either. Nothing special happend, yet. When I think of it, my hands still shake, my knees still collapse. My eyes... are still dried out by the deeds that I have done. Never will I be able to clean my hands of these deeds. Clean my body of what I have done. Clean my soul of pain, suffering, anger and worst... him. He was always lurking behind me. Since the day I was born he stood there. Smiling. Only smiling. Nothing else. For sixteen years he just stood by my side and smiled. There was no one I could speak with about him. I was the only one to be burderend with having him smile at me. Still, now that I think of it. It also was he who protected me. He who stood by my side all my life. Maybe it was not the smile of dead, but the smile of life. Nonetheless, Death was a part of me. Watching over me, maybe. Guiding me, definently. But guiding me to where? What was his goal? For sixteen years have gone by without a change in his additude. Through sickness and pain and hatred, all he did was smile. Smile at my misfortune, but also smile at my joy. Only now, do I know that I was his puppet. His one and only puppet to play the role he could not. To do... the things he wanted... do the things he craved. For Death may not take part of Life, being divided by a force too mighty to explain. For Death may not take away a life, that has a will too strong to life. The weak are his toys. The strong are his foes. And in between, there was me. His one and only puppet.

Like I said. No drop of rain fell from the sky. No ray of light shined through the clouds. The day was a middle ground. No sadness, no joy. One of those days that you look out of your window and think nothing. I mean it. At least, that is how I felt at that moment. But then again, I can not look into the future. I can not predict what would happen that day. For me, it was just any day anyone could have. By now, after sixteen years, I do not really pay attention to him anymore. Why should I? He would be there if I looked at him or away from him. He is like your feet. You do not look at them all the time. You now they are there anyway. Still, if only I did look. Then I would have noticed it, maybe. Noticed what could happen, maybe. For on that normal day, which is, now that I look back at it, not normal at all, his smile disappeared. If only I looked at him closer, I could have stopped what happend that day. Maybe. Maybe not. There was no smile anymore. There was only a grin. Oh boy, there was a grin. One of those that would scare the hell out of you. Hell, heh, that is what that day was. Not a grin of evil, not a grin of dead, but a grin of hell. Knowing that once I have done what he wanted me to do, that hell is the only place waiting for me at the end. I still remember every breath I took. Every blink I made with my eyes. Every, single, heartbeat. These hands and body and soul, will never be cleansed of those deeds.

[Drace]

I know, I know. Double post. Sorry, but I just had to write a silly story.
Anyhoe, here's the real deal. And this IS short.

Like in april last year, I had huge problems with my mum. She is a single parent, so no dad to back me up. She ended up kicking me out of house. I ended up living with an uncle of my younger brother. He took me in. Got a laptop in June or something, but it kept breaking. When I did get it fixed (well, fixed. Found out that the screen was broke so I had to attach a monitor to it) I moved again. But there wasn't any internet. So yeah, I moved last August and decided to come back again a few days ago. Had to get into internet again first. I felt alienated.

Anyhoes. Love how the site looks now and hello all.

[White Dwarf]

I'm Not Back.

Would just like to point that out, is all.

[Cerebus]

Your story got me confused...

I didn't talk to you very much... but welcome back! It's always good to see a revenant.

[Felix-0]

Bean!!!

Welcome Bak Thar!

[Moosetroop11]

Official welcome back!!!

Also, WTF? WHITE!?!

[Meiscool-2]

Welcome to this, the place of stuff.

[Emerates]

I remember you!  Something vaguely similar happened to me last year around the end of April.  (All you oldies probably noticed my hiatus.)  My dad decided to get rid of our phone lines and thus the internet connection.  Didn't really matter much, though, since it was dial-up...  which is to say that this post is actually about your misfortune haha and not mine.

[Prpl_Mage]

Ah the good old times. Moose and the drace pie, made of pheonix.

Welcome back! I don't get moms like that, mine is a pain in the ***. But that's because she stands behimd me when I sprite monsters and says something like "that's a lovely picture". I consider myself lucky.

And wow, White is back as well? No my fault, White isn't back?

[Moosetroop11]

I doubt White's back. Him and Drace go way back and he wanted to celebrate this occasion, is all.

[Archem]

Jesus, man! It's about damn time!

[Grandy]

 Drace, GOOD GOD WE MISSED YOU!

I'm Not Back.

Would just like to point that out, is all.

Bitch.

[Bluhman]

Cerebus, your avatar and signature are dancing in perfect unison.

Oh, and welcome back, my silly fool.

[ZeroKirbyX]

I'm, I'm so happy.

[Uberpwn_w00t]

Well, hello thar! Welcome back to charas.